Tears, a sign of weakness?

It amazes me how easily tears find their way out of my tear gland and out into the world. It has been countless of times that I had tried reminding myself to toughen up and hide those darn salty liquid but to no avail. And you know how people try to tell you that if you keep denying those true feelings, it would "eventually" subside and end-result = a wave of relief and the ability to continue on with life normally as if nothing had happened? Apparently it doesn't work for me. The more I try to go against them, the worst I became. I figured it sort of accumulate from the beginning and when it exceeds a certain limit I breakdown and things start to fall apart so badly, it takes me ages to actually stand up on my two feet once again and go on with my life.

So the thing is, I cry practically so much that I tend to think myself so awfully weak and I couldn't help but to wish that I was actually built as a more cold-stoned human, emotionless, and no sign of feelings. To make things worst, I actually became pretty icy cold at one point.. and that was so bad because it was inhumane. My mom was shocked by the changes she saw in me.

Sometimes I just wish that I have this remote control that could control when and where my tears would fall. Because I honestly hate crying. Especially in front of others. That is a real bitch, I'm telling ya'll!

Conclusion,

"Dear tear glands,
  I wish you wouldn't actively produce those goddamn tears because I honestly don't need them that much. Or at least could you please only produce them when no one is around me because you make me seem so vulnerable and ruddy annoying at times when I cry too much! It's not that I dislike you, I do, I really do, but just not in the eyes of the public. That is all I am asking from you.

Yours truly,
Ms. Eyes.