It was bogus.

It was all claptrap. "We will last long together." "I like you", "We should totally get together". For me, its none other than a messing of the emotions in a big salad bowl, waiting to be mixed up together, the messier it is, the better it will taste. Honestly, I was ready to be with him. Like really be with him. But what the fuck lar. I won't be able to get any nice guys for myself. Or maybe it's karma. I was a meanie back in high school. Oh bollock, I don't even know how is it possible for me to be a player back then when I was eff looking shitty.

If its karma, then I totally guess I deserve it. I have hurt a fair share of good hearts out there.
I'm sorry. truly sorry.

 

And this song was on my playlist. just the right time. :) With a lil modifications, it's the purrfecct song for me.

CRY.. NOT. - Rihanna

I'm not the type to get my heart broken

I'm not the type to get upset and cry

Cause I never leave my heart open

Never hurts me to say goodbye

Relationships don't get deep in me

Never got the whole in-love thing

And someone can say they love me truly

But at the time it didn't mean a goddamn thing

My mind is gone, I'm spinning around

And deep inside my tears, I'll drown

I'm losin grip, whats' happening?

I strayed from love, And this is how i shud fucking feel?

This time was different

Felt like I was just a victim

And it cut me like a knife

When you walked out of my life

I so frigging love this song. But, no, Justin, it's not because of you I am feeling like a dipshit right now. Absolutely not!

It's more of the fact that I have been in millions of relationships and none of them are actually long term. And I am getting so god damn sick of breaking up so often! 

FUCK THE WORLD"S SHITTIEST GUYS OUT THERE. RIGHT NOW!