Love

Again and again you would hear people saying the word, "Love" without any hesitancy and you'd be like, is that word not supposed to be so sacred that it should only be mentioned like once in a blue moon? Or perhaps, we haven't perfectly understood the true meaning of it, and hence the vain usage of the word.

Now that I have mentioned it. What is Love?

Love can come in so many different ways - say, I absolutely love my parents or I love you, boyfriend or I love my friends, etc.
But today, I want to share my thoughts on loving your partner and being fully committed to him/her.

So, remember the bloke I was seeing back in the States, John? Well, he returned to Malaysia (I think I have mentioned it earlier in my previous posts) and I must say, its a darn struggle for sure. For the both of us. Different types of struggles though. The first six months was about us trying to adapt with the cultural shock and everything else like the horrible traffic jams, some nasty smelling odor coming from the underground sewerage pipes or the garbage cans that are simply overflowing with thrash, the weird stares you get from the locals and even discrimination. Of course the biggest challenge was adapting to the weather, finding a job and communication wise. He had a hard time communicating with the locals here as their English proficiency are absolutely next to nothing. Well, at least most of em'.  (Even I have trouble understanding them) Finding a job was the toughest for the both of us. I just started my job and having a hard time coping with the work and company culture whilst looking high and low for a job opportunity for him. Finally, Thank God, he found a great job.

Then, what happens after he slowly jive into the Asian culture and environment? He's going to lose a lot of the excitement he once felt before leaving America. He's going to get bored. He's going to miss home and the norm especially his friends. Uh oh?! But its been 8 months, and thank the Lord, we are still together - overcoming the obstacles in front of us.

Of course, I am not going to deny and paint my life a perfect picture because clearly, it is not. No one's life is. Yes, we are happy together. Very in love. At least I know I love him. A lot. As I grow older with time and experiences, dating and finding that particular someone to fit your life, your interests, your personality, family, friends and everything else is never easy. Heck, I couldn't give two shit when I was younger as all I cared about was gorgeous looking males. I was like a man. Imprinting my scent as globally as I could.

Then I met him. He turned me into a home making little lady, a cook and a cleaner on my terms of course. I simply enjoyed doing that. Something which I have never dreamt of unless I was yelled at by my dear mother. The need to care for him surpasses nearly everything else I have ever cared for except for my family, job and friends of course.

Yes, we have gone through a roller coaster ride. It wasn't an easy one. We have our terrible fights, make up and it happens all over again. Nonetheless, I love him still if not even more. I am not perfect. So is he. But understanding this is what makes it so perfect. The commitment to stay and persevere with whatever hardships and problems are incredibly important. I have never been so committed in my life ever with anything. As a matter of fact, I have the tendency to give up fairly quickly. But recently, I realised that should I put my mind together to do something, it works out just fine. My current job, and my relationship.

So love, to me, is the willingness to care and nurture your partner to ensure that he is happy, building him up whenever he's down, reaching down to him anytime he needs it, and forgiveness and understanding.

Whats love to you?

Social Media Craze!

I must applaud Mark Zuckerberg, Dustin Moskovitz, Eduardo Saverin, Andrew Mccollum, Chris Hughes, Reid Hoffman, Allen Blue, Konstantin Guericke, Kevin Systrom etc. for their abilities in predicting our future social media platform that is so simple yet powerful enough to have corporations paying tonnes of money for advertisement.

Simple a genius!

Why haven't I thought of that? Now, I'm in my cubicle, wrecking my brains and creativity juice trying to create something to penetrate into the market.

Can't let the cats out of the bag yet - but I genuinely hope this will be a major breakthrough. Everyone's trying to do it but none highly successful yet - why? I have no freaking idea, but hey, I'm trying to figure it out and make it all worthwhile!

I have people telling me to give it up cause its merely hopes and dreams but everything is possible. I know I will make it.

p/s: the moment something comes out from my plan - will reveal it to you darlings.

Until then, Wish me luck loves,
xoxo

2014: New Year New Me BS

Okay, so it is indeed the time of the year again - the time where people take the 'opportunity' to reinvent a whole new identity to oneself.

Necessary or unnecessary?

I have gone past enough New Years to realize that a New Year is not the time to reinvent or make up an entire list of bollocks/new personalities to yourself because it doesn't last. Boy, trust me - it won't even work after Day 2.

Below are the things I've tried changing/implementing to myself in the past (at least) 3 New Years ago:

a) 2013: To be more patient, hardworking, utilize time with relevant activities such as reading more, get a 5 figure paying job, sleep earlier, no partying so much, less alcohol, cook more
b) 2012: To be more patient, hardworking, utilize time with relevant activities such as reading more, get a 5 figure paying job, sleep earlier, no partying so much, less alcohol, cook more
c) 2011: To be more patient, hardworking, utilize time with relevant activities such as reading more, get a 5 figure paying job, sleep earlier, no partying so much, less alcohol, cook more

Can you identify a pattern there? YES! Each year, we will subconsciously be making similar if not exact same resolutions because the problem here is we are merely listing down what we want instead of how we want to realize our wishes! (Also, deciding on concrete goals instead of a general picture would help too)

So in the year 2014, here are my goals:

a) Want my Social Media department to kick off in a good start by having the first real estate video to go viral
b) Get an increase in YouTube subscribers to minimum 150 people within the first month
c) Socialize more with socialites and elites of the community
d) Read more articles on LinkedIn and magazines
e) Watch more youtube videos for marketing/advertisements
f) To be the corporate woman in the making with such classy manners and increase in communication skills
g) An increase in salary! Very important cause everything is more expensive!

Whats yours readers? Now, I want you lot to make up concrete goals - something that you can really achieve.

Wishing you all the best and good luck!

Cheers,
oxoxo

New Year's Eve

It's 6.30 pm in the evening - still at work on a New Year's eve, typing away trying to finish up a proposal on Thursday, January 2nd 2014! Yes, a day after new year. Well, I guess work is like that - it's hardly like the times back in college whereby you are able to procrastinate till the late end of the semester before walloping 5 hugeass thick textbooks for the paper due the next day. You got to apply for leave in advance, even then, it is essential that 99% of your work is completed or you'd be in dipshit the day you return to work. At times even, a vacation is not like your typical lay-on-the-beach all day long vacation because when you are bound to receive work mails on your 'SMARTPHONE' [whoever that created it - not sure if he/she is a genius or merely loves working] - which means, obligation to check up on work!

Regardless of the rant I just made earlier about being lifeless while working, I ain't giving in to it. Heck, I am still going to partay later. Its a celebration for a brand new year after all. Life's too short to not celebrate with a bunch of crazies and just have drinks/fun!



Anyway - have a fantastic New Year celebration y'all!!

Love you lots!!

xoxo

New Year's Messages

A HEARTFELT MESSAGE TO MY MATES FROM THE STATES

"Su...! Drink up mate! Cause we're going to partay at Boston's clubs after this! We got to be shitfaced by then! Drinks in them clubs are way too fucking expensive!" Mary yelled.

"Alright, alright love, hand me them Jameson," while I took a swig of it and stumbled towards Mary and Liz. 

I was in Boston Harbor, standing on the brink of the bridge looking at my best mates, Mary and Liz chugging Irish Whisky, high as fuck while waiting for the fireworks show to start. One of the best  moments in my little Asian life, as I journey into a whole new beginning with one of the closest people I know. Oh, I miss them so bloody much. Being away from them is brutal. 

Anyway....Can you fucking believe that it's nearly the end of 2013?! I still remember my first new year's celebration in the United States counting down to the year 2013 so vividly its like deja vu and here I am fast forward a year later, in MALAYSIA, taking a stroll down this memory lane. 

Time, indeed, is such a precious gem. To me, to you, to everyone in this world.

In a glimpse of an eye, your once-a-toddler is now a I'm-always-right-teenager, and your parents whom used to hold that toddler up with such intense strength is now growing much older. *sniffs*

Hence, I want to take this opportunity to remind you lot that time is the only thing that cannot be turned back and which would cost you arms and legs should you not hurry the fuck up and start cherish the remains - especially with your loved ones. 

**************

When I first returned to Malaysia, I had the most preposterous rage and temper ever especially towards my family. Had I realized what a dumb mofo I was, I would turn back time just to smack myself in the groins I've always thought I had. The anger, the swirls of emotions.. wasn't worthy of the time spent not talking to my mom. I have literally wasted a good solid week of amazing communication and time spent with her. Alas, the point here is to regret and realize your mistake so that there will be this tiny chance for you to rectify things. 

Though this year has been a kickass-one-of-a-kind journey for myself, I believe that it will be better for the years to come. 

And to  my mates in the states, here are my wishes to you lot

Dear Mary and Liz and your loveliest boyfriends,

Stay happy and healthy always, you lot will always be my besties and one of the most important part in my life. I know that I will be back soon, and craziness with a whole barrels of dancing and insanity will rejoice in our presence and all will be good. I miss you lot so much! 

Cheers and love always,

little su su (eggroll)

Dear Phoebe,

You have been through all the hardship that only a strong young girl like yourself is able to endure. You are a great friend, a darn strong one, and I miss your friendship so badly too. Never give up to temptations or care about what others have to say about you. Let them be and let them say. Be the better person. And live your life. 

Love you girl,

Emily

Dear Meg and John,

You both made a significant impact in my life. I love how you both work so hard and never giving up to the shitty world. I love how Meg is so protective and such an amazing mate! You, indeed, are another precious gem in my life that I would never forget, ever! And again, I know I will be back to you! Life's too short not spending around the people you love - so keep your chin up, fingers cross - praying that I will get a job in the states in a year's time and we'll be reunited!

Warmest Wishes and love always,

Emily (little asian)

Dear Belkis,

You, strong hot mamasita! My life inspiration. You have taught me to never give up during the darkest hour - to constantly cherish your loved ones despite of their differences and whatnot. I love you always, my classmate, my love. I miss you a whole lot too - especially your alcoholic eggnog? ahhaha. Please make a whole barrel for me so I can toss and drown myself in that delish alcohol!

Love you so much! (do send my love to all your beautiful chickas)

Emily (little asian)

Here's my whacky family and boyfriend - minus my little brother and his chick. 

 LAST BUT NOT LEAST, HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS! <3 p="">

xoxo

Society Today

Its absolutely outrageous to see what the society is slowly becoming into. Druglords, snatch thieves, rapists, serial killers etc. is a pure sheer of hint to what our world is becoming of - regardless of which part of the world you are in. Is that our major threat though?

Honestly, not necessarily. Because if you have come to known certain normal-looking people but with evil hearts, massive terrible intentions that would harm someone; it is just as terrible as the first scenario. Or perhaps, even worse, as you are not imparted by no drugs or whatnot - and yet you have the intentions to put someone in an awful place.

Allow me to provide an example - a young lad get into a company, he was truly excited and boisterous because he figured (probably is) a stepping stone to his success, he came in with this sense of hope and enthusiasm and optimism - only to be let down by the attitude of (colleagues/managers). Because he realized that instead of working as a team - he has been back-stabbed and being spoken ill of as well as being blamed upon when any unfavourable results happen. Nasty, but that is life. This shit happens. I have heard stories, even experienced my own.

So anyway, this is going to be a short post - but I would really appreciate if you lot could give your opinions on this topic. :)

Cheerios cranberians,

xoxo 

Life as you grow older

Just got back from a lunch date with a close friend of mine. She's absolutely a doll. We were just talking about everything under the sun - from work to relationships and family. Having to juggle all of this under tremendous stress from either one is unbearable, but then imagine yourself having to face this sort of stress from all kinds of directions. Ah. Say goodbye to your sanity.

Some would say - stay positive. Your thoughts can be more powerful than you think! Yes, undeniable, but how long can someone stay positive when the vibes around is all negative? We couldn't figure that out.
Regardless, I do believe in the power of optimism! It does play an effect. Another thing we agreed upon is your biggest enemy is yourself, whereas your closest friend is also yourself. Happiness is definitely within one's reach. How you rate your happiness is solely based on the decisions you make.
Oh, how true!

I  must say, working in a corporate world, having a foreigner bf, with insufficient funds while living in a city is none too easy. I am struggling, but I am sure at the end of this, I am bound to gain so much more than just experiences. I learn to grow stronger, to adapt in any living environment and deal with different kinds of people. The world, indeed, is your oyster.

Anyway, so long cranberrians!

Stay tuned to my next post!

<3 p="">