As a result of my past experiences, I have learnt to guard my frail heart from being thrown around like American Football. There were a couple of touchdowns in the past, not anymore, I will have some quarterbacks, to stop the other team from reaching the end.
It seemed like it was the right thing to do because it allows me to be cold, untouched by the flirts thrown by men, and I like how it made me feel like I'm a much stronger woman by not giving in to temptations of exposing my emotions and feelings to the man I like. The vulnerability is simply unbearable.
But, at the same time, holding back my emotions and denying them is just so hard, because all I could think of is how much I long to tell him I miss him, and I really like him but I chose not to because I didnt wanna seem like a weakling in front of him. It makes thing worse because he makes sure that I am aware of his feelings.
I think he's feeling the same way as me, because he seems to want to be able to express himself but the uncertainties in the near future is so hazy, he didn't want to risk it. Thats exactly how I'm feeling.
I don't know what to do. I feel extremely burdened by these feelings because I know I care a lot about him. I know I could move on. Thing is, I'm conflicted if I should or if thats the right move.
I simply don't know. I guess there's no definite answer to my question. I'll just have to see how this go.
It seemed like it was the right thing to do because it allows me to be cold, untouched by the flirts thrown by men, and I like how it made me feel like I'm a much stronger woman by not giving in to temptations of exposing my emotions and feelings to the man I like. The vulnerability is simply unbearable.
But, at the same time, holding back my emotions and denying them is just so hard, because all I could think of is how much I long to tell him I miss him, and I really like him but I chose not to because I didnt wanna seem like a weakling in front of him. It makes thing worse because he makes sure that I am aware of his feelings.
I think he's feeling the same way as me, because he seems to want to be able to express himself but the uncertainties in the near future is so hazy, he didn't want to risk it. Thats exactly how I'm feeling.
I don't know what to do. I feel extremely burdened by these feelings because I know I care a lot about him. I know I could move on. Thing is, I'm conflicted if I should or if thats the right move.
I simply don't know. I guess there's no definite answer to my question. I'll just have to see how this go.
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