I am a girl who tries my very best to stay optimistic and positive about everything that happens! Seriously. Because I believe life is too short to continuously sitting around one corner mopping about your sad pathetic life. I also believe that life is what you make the best out of it. You have the power to define it the way you want, well not precisely the WAY you want, but at least moving towards the direction of the way you opt for it to be.
But sometimes, you know how these positive vibes wear out and gradually weakens because all of a sudden, a massive string of sad devastating events hit you right at your face, not even allowing you a couple of seconds to get a grip on yourself? Mine is wearing out more each time.
At first I totally believe in full fledged lifelong relationships.
Shit happens.
I realized, hell, there ain't no happily ending for anything. Death. Divorce. 2 HUGE ASS D's.
So I picked myself up, convinced myself, stayed positive thinking that well, why not just happily embrace the moment. THIS EXACT Moment you're going through?
And then I challenged myself. Thats the best remedy ever, but then again, we're mere weak humans going through a turmoil of wrecked emotions. Blame it on the hormones, the society anything you could grasp hold of. But this shit is true. I asked myself so. Whats the point of even getting drenched into this knowing its just temporary?
Its just so funny how sometimes I could be utterly adamant about appreciating every single happy moment now. Cherish the happy times this very second.
and yet, sometimes, I could be totally disheartened by the fact that this happy moment is just short term. (thats what I tell/remind myself because I don't want my hopes too high given all the really really really messed up events that had happened to some of the people I know)
Well, you could argue that the things that happened to someone else's lives might not occur in yours. True. But, again, the probabilities of a negative event to happen is definitely higher than of a positive event. Thats' what I have come to realize in this life.
Im still very very conflicted as to what I believe. But I am definitely a much calmer person, telling myself everything happens for a reason, and irrespective of the nasty nasty shit being thrown at you, really, you have no choice but to go on with your life. Might as well make a full use of it instead of looking back at the past trying to complicate your right-now life even more.
But sometimes, you know how these positive vibes wear out and gradually weakens because all of a sudden, a massive string of sad devastating events hit you right at your face, not even allowing you a couple of seconds to get a grip on yourself? Mine is wearing out more each time.
At first I totally believe in full fledged lifelong relationships.
Shit happens.
I realized, hell, there ain't no happily ending for anything. Death. Divorce. 2 HUGE ASS D's.
So I picked myself up, convinced myself, stayed positive thinking that well, why not just happily embrace the moment. THIS EXACT Moment you're going through?
And then I challenged myself. Thats the best remedy ever, but then again, we're mere weak humans going through a turmoil of wrecked emotions. Blame it on the hormones, the society anything you could grasp hold of. But this shit is true. I asked myself so. Whats the point of even getting drenched into this knowing its just temporary?
Its just so funny how sometimes I could be utterly adamant about appreciating every single happy moment now. Cherish the happy times this very second.
and yet, sometimes, I could be totally disheartened by the fact that this happy moment is just short term. (thats what I tell/remind myself because I don't want my hopes too high given all the really really really messed up events that had happened to some of the people I know)
Well, you could argue that the things that happened to someone else's lives might not occur in yours. True. But, again, the probabilities of a negative event to happen is definitely higher than of a positive event. Thats' what I have come to realize in this life.
Im still very very conflicted as to what I believe. But I am definitely a much calmer person, telling myself everything happens for a reason, and irrespective of the nasty nasty shit being thrown at you, really, you have no choice but to go on with your life. Might as well make a full use of it instead of looking back at the past trying to complicate your right-now life even more.
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